||[Apr. 3rd, 2009|03:05 pm]
Today I was thinking about gratitude. Firstly that maybe I didn't get what I wanted yesterday because I wasn't gratefull for what I have, Then I thought, what about me? Am I gratefull to myself? When we think about being gratefull for our gifts, there is am implication that they come from somewhere outside ourselves. They don't. They come from me being me. From the decisions I have made and the interests I have persued. The base abilities, like thinking, might have been influenced by something outside me or they might have been the accident of genetics and upbringing. I litterally don't know, so I am going to be gratefull to me.|
This is necessary in order to give. I can't give if I can't recieve, and most of what I recieve comes from me. I admit I have had trouble recieving most of my adult life. I have been working on that.
Don't get me wrong, I am also gratefull to you. ALl of you. And to the universe, fate, karma, or whatever may or may not be responsible for certain pushes and suggestions. But it is time I got on that list.